A couple of months ago....
I've been in a situation wherein I can say how i wish i didn't experienced it.
Should I say all kinds of "aches", I've endured it. Name it I've been through it.
Then I ask Lord, I said " Lord, Please Ayoko na siya makita. If the right time permits,
If it is your will na magkrus na ang landas namin then i'll take it as a sign that everything
is settled then, No more bitterness and no more aches."
Just when you didn't expect it. The person whom I've wished to hide forever appears.
On the contrary, I've felt that something missing has been put back. No negativity has passed through me. I didn't know if this scenario is good or bad. Everything has flash backed. Those happy memories and those days that we've talked like there's no tomorrow.
I must admit I'm happy but a part of me also says that I'm putting myself in another situation wherein I 'll lose again. In this world, Where everything is complicated, How can i put a good judgement?
Weighing between what wanders to your mind and to what your heart feels, whom shall i listen to?
They say if you want to know where your heart is look where it wanders.
Sometimes we need to learn to let go pero bakit ganon? Kung kailan nagpasya ka nang makalimot atsaka naman babalik at magpapaalala sayo? Minsan nga naisip ko nalang sana may selective amnesia nalang ako para hindi na ko nahihirapan atleast di ba? New beginnings nalang. Wala ka ng maalala na masasakit na bagay.
I know there must have a good reason kaya nangyayari ulit ito. I know there is. I believe.
Nakayanan ko naman na maging normal ang buhay, Maybe i should just let it be.
Basta ang alam ko walang bitterness na. I'm just having a doubt if this situation will only make it worse. Yun naman yung pinagdasal ko na sana maging okay na lang lahat at masaya na siya then i guess that is enough.
Kunwari ibang tao yung nagsulat ano kaya i advise ko?
